If there is pain, nurse it, and if there is a flame, dont snuff it out, dont be brutal with it. Withdrawal can be a terrible thing when it keep us awake at night, and watching others forget us sooner than we'd want to be forgotten is no better. We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster than we should that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty and have less to offer each time we start with someone new. But to feel nothing so as not to feel anything-- what a waste...
A month ago, one of my friend send me a link of his blog- He kept post English articles about his work, life and experience as a freelancer. And yes, he is my mentee(the 1st one and the only mentee at this moment), we are learning and having fun in the same toastmaster club.
The girl who ever said she is straightforward(不坦坦荡荡不是自身的作风) is missing now,I seems she want to avoid something bad.what a pity it is.I makes me feel confused,I dont know the reason is my gift or my words.I still wait u ,I know what I am doing.It is impossible for me to find you without your clear permission,I am also not feeling well on Febrary,but even I ever felt bad,I still have the courage to keep going,I know if I am kind originally,I will always be.
And several months ago, one day occasionally, i found a girl who's currently working and living in the US, kept post English articles and doodles in this platform.
Inspired by them two, i decided to register and start the journey of recording my life here in English. The first thing is to recording, then to practise my English writing. Not sure how long i will stick here, but i hope one day when i look back, i can find the trace of my life here. I will do my best.
avoid the straight way
The 1st thing i'd like to record here is, i had dinner with a friend after work yesterday, and she informed me the good news of her marriage! I always thought the best way to get along with a friend is to keep some safety distance. We dont have to share everything with him or her, we dont need to meet everyday, we can have our own private space, we can hold different views or ideas toward things, as long as we are heading the same direction and we are comfortable with each other. But sometimes you have to admit it's magic that you are fated to be friends with someone- with no reason. Dont need to talk much, dont need to meet each other many times, you two just becomes friends.
I realized I had said many wordy words.
I hold this feeling toward my friend when she told me she's get married recently in the US. So happy and so excited, a bit shocked but calm down quickly. It's not an easy thing for them to be together and make the decision to get married, even though i dont know much details about my friend and her partner, i dont have to! I feel so happy for them- from the bottom of my heart. And this super awesome news was definitely light up my day, i couldn't help to keep the excitement till today!
That's the magic of love and magic of friendship, when you keep caring about others, when you feel real happy for your friends of their good news, you can get the happiness too!
yellow flower on the ground
Movie lines。I would congratulations to my friends once again! and i feel so happy and so proud of them!
In fact,I dont love Sandy,ever when I had some good feeling,I called her yanzhi,after some time,I called her Liu yanzhi,I just feel frustrated about her.I dont know how to start a proper communication with her. I told myself there was a person who hated u and you should pay more attention on her and let her forgive U.This is the focus that I take serious all the time.I maybe make some mistakes but I never and dont want to think how to keep a quiet autitude even there is a gap between u and other person.There would be a balck hole in your heart if u do something align with such emotion.U will lose patience on others,we dont need thinking too mach about a person if we can have a fluent communication with others.I told Sandy this again and agian.I dont know what did she thought but I dont want to hear sentences like that I dont think we can be friends.I dont know why .Usually ,if we have some emotion ,we can find the source ,if we dont like a person,we can also find the reason,but the reason mostly seems not accepted by most people,so we only express our emotion.This is a awful process,we may gragually think we should only do what we like and apart from those that we hete.we lose the sensitivity about a behavir that we think it a little strange.we pay more kindness on what we like and ignore the things that we dont like.even when someone say it we will think it ridiculous and nonsense.